Cole♱ (@stationarycole)

#life #gymrat #mechanic #eldenring #fypシ゚

What Overthinking and Asociality does to a man. #real #life #mentalhealth #overthinking #fypシ゚

[where are you now] Away from everyone and every thing. I may be lonely or I may not be happy but at least I’m not rotting in life. I’ve returned to an old routine in life with a different version of me. The one who tries to live the moment instead of wanting more. Having dreams and hopes is good and all but it’s not for me. Work hard, survive and be content with what you have. That’s all there is to life. #life #mentalhealth #apexlegends #fyp

A 15k can’t be as difficult as staying am I right guys? #real #fyp #running

Nothing but motion and fatigue. #real #fyp #vent

How does one hold on to a dream, when they barely ever sleep. #real #fyp #vent #dream

Hoping effort could replace the warmth I wasn’t fortunate enough to feel. #real #fyp #vent

The quiet wouldn’t feel so loud. My future wouldn’t feel like something that slipped through my hands. #vent #fyp

Been thinking about it for a while, dust feels right for someone who was never whole to anyone. #real #r1 #yamaha #biketok #fyp

[update] I’ve been surviving back on my own routine in life. I live by myself, I work 2 jobs, I’ve beaten cancer(not official yet), enrolling uni soon to finish my last semester and I’ll be moving to a new country after (probably Alaska, USA or country side Japan). I keep myself busy because I’m not happy yet. I know I won’t be for life. And as much as it’s good to finally being back to someone who no one worries about. There’s always this feeling of wanting to share the little things in life and being able to appreciate someone’s existence that I can’t have anymore. Bittersweet knowing I was right all along about just being a temporary person, a fridge. But it is what it is yk. I hate myself for being soft and opening up but I’m glad I could’ve been of help if any. But I do not wanna feel soft anymore. It hurts. It really does. #real #biketok #r1 #yamaha #fyp